I've lost you

Today Ive Lost You - Take That

Back for good - Take That

I know
I was so stupid to refuse ur offer
I was waiting that chance for so long, since we met for the first time
and now I ruined it.
Is it too late to apologize
From talking to fighting, admitting, denying
To finally saying goodbye

Now I regret every word that was spoken
I said some things you know I didn’t mean
Maybe we’ll turn back the time
Work it out, start anew
Or maybe today I’ve lost you

I can’t help but think of our last conversation
I close my eyes I can still see your face
I hope what I’m feeling now
You are feeling it too
Or maybe today I’ve lost you

Being single’s so bad at twenty-six
Looking for signs, asking strangers directions
When the answer’s right in front of me

Strange how a day it can feel like a lifetime
I know what I had now it’s gone
Ive swallowed my pride cos alone here, I’m dying
And with you is where I belong

maybe today, I’ve lost you..

I'm really sorry
I'm asking for the third chance from you
Would you give me that chance???

The boys

akhirnya tanggal 14 maret sudah berakhir juga...
dan banyak hal terjadi di tanggal itu
dan semua menyangkut ke-4 cowok yang mengisi hatiku beberapa minggu ini
(maruk...lol)

1. skinny cat
ga nyangka ketemu dia di SS kemaren. ga nyangka dia datang tahun ini, setelah tahun lalu dia menolak untuk datang padahal gue ajakin. dia datang sendiri dan ketika snack time, mata kami bertemu 2 kali; tapi ga ada respon apa2 dari dia atau gue. gue hanya berbalik menjauhi.salah gue sih makanya dia jadi dingin gitu dan gue ga berhak untuk marah2.

2. giraffe
makin melihat berbagai sisi dia.  apalagi om ndut bener2 naro gue di bagian dia hahaha...tapi apakah karena itu makanya dia selalu berdiri ga jauh dari gue sepanjang seminar (karena gue melayani di bagian dia), tapi yang gue sebelnya dia hanya berdiri (kadang bahkan menutupi gue) dan terkadang berbalik melihat ke meja gue ataupun menyampiri meja gue. kita hanya berbicara sedikit dan itupun masalah umum. walaupun kemudian gue gagal total duduk bareng dia karena ga dapat tempat duduk.

tapi seperti janji gue, setelah SS rasanya udah ga mungkin lagi gue bisa sms-an ama dia. udah ga ada yang bisa dibahas secara normal.dan lagi dia juga ga bakal sms gue juga. paling gue cuma bisa sms pas hari raya atau sebulan lagi pas dia ultah. jadi yah siap2 untuk melupakan juga deh...
btw, gue beli 2505 pink...jadi sama deh kaya punya-nya giraffe.

3. om ndut
wah ini yang paling berkesan bagi gue. gue udah sadar bahwa kalo di kenyataan, gue ga bisa seekspresif seperti di chatting. makanya gue pasang cool face aja.sama kaya dia. dan bener aja, dia hactic luar biasa. mana brewokan banget jadi bikin muka dia tambah serem dan siap menerkam siapa saja. dan dia selalu marah2 atau tegas banget. tapi entah kenapa gue tetap bisa melihat kelembutan dari dia. waktu gue protes ga dapat air minum, dia bawain sekardus botol walau sebelumnya sempet kesel, dan sempet2nya ngeledek gue yang abis makan hokben. orang lain sih ga bakal ngeh kalo itu ledekan, tapi bagi gue itu sweet hahahaa...
pingin banget perhatiin dia atau sms dia nih setelah SS, cuma gue tahu itu bisa mengganggu atau pun menghancurkan tembok yang kita bangun.
dan melihat dia pontang panting di SS, melihat dia melakukan kerjaan yang bukan tugas dia, membuat gue sangat terharu dan buntutnya malah makin sayang...
tapi gue denial kalo itu cuma kekaguman dan sayang sebagai brother aja.
but it makes me want to hug my teddy bear...

4. polar bear..
seperti biasa polar bear selalu nanyain gue lagi ngapain, dan gue bilang aja gue di sensi. eh kemudian dia malah mau ke sensi juga dan ngajak ketemuan dan makan. yang sebelnya itu udah kemaleman banget (bagi gue) dan gue juga uda cape luar biasa. jadinya yah gue tolak deh...

Tired

I'm so tired with you
with all this feeling
you gave me so much color on my days
but somehow, it seems now black
I believe the passion and curiosity between us is gone
You don't have the heart to me
and I'm so tired to prove that I care about you

You didnt reply my text anymore like used to be
and I.m so tired with all the rumors about you
I can felt that we don't have the chemistry like before
and I can see the fact objectively
I dont know if you still have the feeling with that girl
but I know, she will be a barrier b'tween us
so... I'm tired with this uncertain things
I'm tired to reach you
and I'm tired with your swing mood
I'm sure that we're not perfect for each other
I dont need to wait until 14th march to decide it
it's too long and it will break my heart more
I hope you'll find the perfect partner like u wish for
and so do I...

thanks to my beloved ndut,
untuk masukannya yang walaupun menyakitkan dan sempat membuat gue down selama beberapa hari tapi dia telah memberikan kenyataan.
Untuk sofi, lingke, dan duma juga yang telah membantu gue melihat dia secara lebih jelas :)

I.M.U

There are times in my life

When I feel so much love inside
Taking over my mind

Every day every night
I wonder when you come around
Wish I can hold you tight
In my arms forever
will you let me be the one in your heart

And I really miss you so bad
And I really miss you so
And I really miss you so bad
And I really miss you so

Baby, your sweet smile
You’re lovely person …
It takes my breath away

I miss u...

Suka Kamu

Setiap bertemu dengan dirimu
Aku menjadi salah tingkah

Senyum tak bisa apalagi tertawa
Kamu buatku mati gaya

Lalu kamu mulai dekati aku
Bertanya-tanya tentang diriku
Ku jawab semua dan kamu pun tersenyum
Kamu buatku bahagia

Aku suka kamu
Aku naksir kamu

Kamu ingat aku
Aku ingat kamu
Aaah hanya kamu

kangen juga

lama ga chat sama ndut, akhirnya hari ini bisa chatting juga walau cuma bentar

hari minggu kemaren polar bear nelpon dan mulai perhatian lagi deh by sms

giraffe untuk pertama kalinya reply status gue di fesbuk

hm...cowok2 yang bikin gue kangen dan jerawatan nih heheehe

if you fall in love with me

there will be no ordinary days for you
if there is someone who cares
like i do
you got no reason to be sad anymore
I'm always dreaded with a smile
with just one glimpse of you

you don't have to search no more
coz i am someone who
will love you for sure
so
if you fall in love with me
maybe we'll sing this song as one
if you fall in love with me
we can write a better song than this
if you fall in love with me
we will have this melody in our heads
if you fall in love with me
any where with you would be a better place..
you can watch sad movies in a different light
so I'll be right there beside you
huggin you so tight
has from never felt so cold and empty again
coz I will keep on holding on and won't let go
feel so good when you're around
one smile from you
make my day just so bright
if you fall in love with me

Bener juga nih :D

Kuis-kuis yang lebih akurat di banding facebook.

worth it to try

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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The Real You

Here is the analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking

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What's your personality love style?

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

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What type of personality do you have?

Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

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What does being a friend really mean to you?

You value your friendships: 60%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

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I lost. I cry. I broke. I let go

Every night I find it so hard to sleep

Cause I keep thinkin of you

And these feelings from me

Oh baby, I try to hide all these feelings for you

I keep them all locked inside

I dont know what else to do

So I cry

And nobody hears me, I cry

It`s my only solution, I cry

Through all this confusion I cry

With all of my heart, I cry

Sometimes I wonder, in the blink of an eye 

Would you be No one can tell me that I should let you go 

Cause I know in my heart,

This feeling`s still runnin strong

Can`t get you out of my head,

Can`t get you out of my heart,

Can`t get you out of my life,

No matter if we`re apart e willing to love me,

Would you give it a try?

I don`t know how elseto show you that

Our love could be real

I`d be eternally faithful ..

Forever I feel

update

Udah beberapa minggu ini gue gak update blog karena saya emang lagi sibuk banget sama urusan pribadi juga kerjaan. Banyak sih yang mau ditulis. Banyak juga yang pengen diceritain. Tapi dalam waktu yang sangat sempit ini kayaknya gak mungkin nulis semuanya. Yang patut dicatat belakangan ini adalah…

1. tgl 28 januari kemaren gue ultah ke 26. dukanya adalah gue tambah tua dan sand ga ngucapin huhuhu...senengnya adalah H dan D ngucapin heheehe :) senangnya...padahal mereka baru hadir dalam kehidupan gue.yudhis dan yuno juga ngucapin :)) dan temen2 lain juga pada inget dan ngucapin.senang :) ultah gue jadi ga depresi kaya waktu 25.cuma, kalo ultah berarti duit banyak keluar karena kudu traktir hehehe but it's OK lah :)

2. debby, akk gue, ternyata pacaran sama cowok budha. sedih... :(( jadi berasa gagal sebagai PKK

3. lagi sibuk di skul dan seminggu ini bener2 diuji kesabaran sama Tuhan dalam menghadapi witch and manajemen skul

4. Manusia berubah. Kadang berubahnya jadi tidak menyenangkan dan menerima perubahan ini amat sulit untuk gue. Contohnya: ttg sand and witch. dua orang yang bikin keki gue selama seminggu ini

5. Bilang ‘tidak’ itu ternyata sulit, tapi sialnya sering harus dilakukan.

6. Semakin bertambahnya umur, kita jadi makin tau siapa teman-teman sejati kita.

7. hubungan ama ndut uda baik2 kembali setelah gue pikir ndut uda menjauh, tapi dia lagi sibuk ama SS niy jadi ga bisa sering ganggu ndut :(( tapi dia inget ultah gue :))

7. Beda tipis antara jatuh cinta dan tidak jatuh cinta (???)

8. seneng ada yg ngucapin met bobo tiap malam :)) ----> because of my polar bear :D